It's Almost Here

Well maybe this is safer than holding on
Maybe I'm better with me than with you
I loved you for so long that I forgot how to love myself
Thank you God for opening my eyes
I though I was blind.

Nobody has to prove anything to me. I get it. I've been unhappy for so long and now I'm finally finding peace within. I've seen that life is more than being popular, getting the guy and saying you were a part of something. It's more than pretending that you're happy. It's really possible to be happy.

I don't have a boyfriend and honestly I haven't ever REALLY had one. I think that is something that can make you feel like you're less than a person sometimes, until you realize that you're ok without someone else to latch on to. I've realized it's ok to find out how happy you are and can be alone before you find someone else to add to this happiness. It's just taking me a while to get there.

My music career is taking off, but not as fast as I want it to. But I've decided that it's mostly my fault. I have to put forth all the effort in the world to make it happen. And, now, I'm prepared to do that. I'm prepared to put my all into this thing, because this is what I LOVE. I truly can say this is my passion and my purpose.

So, what I'm saying is I'm finally able to look in the mirror and say that I love myself. I love Whitney for who she is right now. I love that she's scared sometimes. I love that she's ok to yell and ok to be quiet. I love that she talks too much. I love that she falls in love fast. I love that she isn't afraid to let her heart go. I love that she's a fighter. She's a non-conformist and she's not afraid to say what she's really thinking. I love, mostly, that I'm accepting all of this. All of this is ok. And it's ok that I'm insecure in some moments. It's ok that I don't think sometimes. And it's ok that I'm not always right. I'm a better person than I or some people realize. There is potential in my life and I'm grateful. Truly...just for who I am.

I'm not who I want to be just yet
But I'm well on my way
I'm not who people think I am
I am becoming the woman I was designed to be
Thank you God for giving me the eyes to see this
I thought I was blind