Whisper

No...there are reasons
Just because we miss them
Doesn't mean they never existed
There are reasons
I hear them sometimes
Sometimes I miss them
But there are reasons

Let me say this. Whitney is a rollercoaster ride all in herself. Sometimes I'm up and, of course, sometimes I'm down. I've learned, however, that I have to find some satisfaction in me. I've got to stop looking at myself through the eyes of the norm and look at myself for who I am.

You know, it's funny. I like this guy and I really thought he liked me, too. But everytime he sees a picture of a friend of mine he quickly begans to ask about her. Then he tells me the type of girl he likes...nothing like me. So, I get it. But still wonder what's his point in flirting with me continuously. Whatever--guys are strange.

But I won't let him or all the other guys who've ignored me for the last 21 years discourage me. A guy told me today that I seemed really down to earth and shouldnt let a few guys make me think bad about the rest of them. He's right. And I keep giving chances. I keep trying to say each guy is different, but I get proved wrong time and time again. Yet, I won't stop hoping. I'm a hopeless romantic.

Well, I just wanted to write today. I've to start doing this everyday! I need to get some things off of this chest and out of this heart and head. I need to get focused and I need to do what's best for me! This is my life.

And I don't know if I told you, this is not homework. Life, is the test.

Later kids.

Love.Live.Music


Mwa.