First of all I hate being stupid. I hate doing things that are illogical and make no sense. Funny thing is, I always do. Especially when it comes to him. I miss him, I think. I am trying to learn how to function without his presence or thoughts, but I feel as though I'm failing miserably. So...I'm talking to this dude we'll call him John (wack) and everything he says reminds me of him (guess we should give "him" a name, too. nah. lol). John is cool, but he is very simple and very goofy and lame. Why did I just get out of a relationship with the most charismatic guy in the WORLD? It's gonna make this finding someone else thing IMPOSSIBLE! So, back to being stupid. I called him today for the first time in a few days. He doesn't answer and I panic. Yes, panic. I called again and sent a few texts. Then I finally realized. Oh damn, he's not my boyfriend anymore. And I cry. I didn't think it would be this hard or that I'd do so many stupid things while I'm trying to forget him. ARGH! But I digress. I just gotta deal. One day at a time. I mean, I did actually live my life without him...like four years ago! Damn, life.
So, I'm super hyped. I'm in the studio ALL week. I'm really excited to get to do some new work. I'll be writing some great stuff in lue of my recent loss (LOL, the boyfriend). I guess this is a good time for me to get serious about this thing. I need to find some performance spots this semester and really get my foot in the door in some places. Can't wait!!! Life is going to work. It has to. I just have to make it happen.
Well....later kids.
Love.Live.Music
Mwa.
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