...Each Day Get Better...

How can he just let her go?

Easy. I guess when you love someone so much and they let you down too much, you have no choice. You have to move. Maybe that's where he was when he decided to leave me. I can never tell, but I can tell that he still loves me. He called me baby last night, told me he missed me and was sweet to me for the first time in a long time. We had conversation. I almost cried. It's something about being in love. It makes you happy. I know a person shouldn't have so much control over another, but we were made to love. And now that I've had it. I want it back.
Is it too hard for us to admit that we want love? I remember being so cynical about love. I remember never feeling like I needed to get married or have children. I thought I'd be content with spending my life alone. Or maybe I was just psyching myself out. Because,now, I realize I need these things. But most importantly...I need them with him. I've never met someone who adds to my life so much. I truly can say I love him. And there are so many others who are trying to take his place, but I cannot let them. They just aren't what I want. He was everything. He had the looks, the charisma, the personality, the stubborness, and the drive I loved so much. I'm praying for my life right now. Praying that he is apart of it...somehow.

But...I digress.

So...I'm being challenged as a journalist right now. I have to do something profound, write something meaningful and be immersed in this life of NEWS. I love news, but I don't love this. If I could be perfectly honest. I don't know what I want to do with my life. As scary as that sounds...I don't. I'm going to be successful as a journalist, but it's not what I want. I want to do music...I think. I don't know. I'm confused. I want to be happy. And I don't know what will get me there. I'm searching. I'm on a journey...

Whether we know it or not...life is not the homework...it's the test.

Later kids...

Much Love

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